Saturday, May 03, 2008

Hitting the Wall

Today I hit the wall. It's no big surprise I guess; but it caught me off guard. Jane had a fairly good night last night; up just one time, but for about an hour and a half. We all "slept in" this morning until 6:45am.

By 10:00am, Jane was really hurting. Lost a bunch of fluid, went back to sleep, woke up two hours later, lost a bunch of fluid again. By 4:30 this afternoon, she was in excruciating pain; so we called hospice and the nurse came out. Just moments before she arrived, Jane got rid of everything in her stomach (a huge amount) and immediately felt 100% better.

The nurse talked with us for awhile, and will come over tomorrow to speak to the family about the dying process. She also explained that even though the IV infusions seemed to make Jane feel a little better in the short term, in the longer term they were causing her more harm than good.

My son, daughter in law and granddaughter stopped by one more time before going back home to Michigan; my brother came from L.A. last night, and leaves early tomorrow morning. The whole immediate family went out for lunch, stopped by afterward, and everyone filed in to Jane's room, one by one to say goodbye; some just for the day, others for the rest of their lives.

After everyone had gone, I melted down. Went and laid down for a much needed nap. Jane is resting comfortably this evening, and hopefully will continue that way through the night. As always, we covet your prayers.

NOTE: Although the text is the same, I changed the pictures between my blog and Jane's. The photo in my blog expresses how I felt, but seemed a little too violent for hers.

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Blogger rosepua said...

I appreciate your honesty, Doug, about where Jane is and how you are. I am very, very sorry that you must prepare to say goodbye to your lovely bride... Love, MA

May 3, 2008 at 9:15 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

God Bless You Doug. We're praying for you.
The Killips

May 3, 2008 at 10:07 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you for taking the time, Doug, to blog frequently. I don't know how hard it is for you to do, but Paul and I really appreciate you letting us all know what's happening.


May 3, 2008 at 10:12 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Kev and I are checking your blogs too and I am really using them to help me pray for you, so it means a lot that you are so honest.

May 3, 2008 at 10:17 PM  
Blogger Mel Glubrecht said...

We will pray for a peace filled night.
Jack and Mel

May 3, 2008 at 10:44 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Doug:
I put your names in for healing and peace yesterday. You both are always in my thoughts. This is one of the few times in my life that I wish I was a Fairy Godmother who could wave her magic wand and make everything all better. Just to let you know that I am by your side in spirit always. Will drop by Woodstocks tomorrow. Need to eat a good pizza. I wish you both peace of mind and body. Love and Prayers, Regina

May 4, 2008 at 7:42 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Doug and Jane, Jacob and I are praying for you everyday. That He will give you the peace and strength you need during this time. We are also praying for the rest of the family as well. We love you and are praying for you. Love Jacob & Stacey Hartfeld

May 4, 2008 at 8:27 AM  

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