Am I Bugging You?
Jane was fairly wakeful today, and was able to communicate a few things; mostly "water." She is always thirsty, and tries to "con" anyone who comes into her room, into giving her a drink of water. We are not withholding water from her, but we must be careful about the amount she receives at any one time.
Her sister and I were sitting with her today, and I asked her a couple of questions. She wrinkled her brow, and I asked, "Am I bugging you?" She nodded, "Yes."
"Do you want me to leave now?" She nodded "Yes." We both laughed so hard.
I was not laughing earlier today. As I watch her grow weaker, and quieter, it really hurts.
Most of the time, I just don't "go there" but when I do, I get that gripping my throat feeling, and the boot standing on my chest.
Many of you ask me how I'm doing, and I usually respond with, "not too bad." But that's a half-truth. I'm doing OK half the time, and not OK the other half.
Your words of encouragement and prayers keep me going. Thank you for that.
"OK, I know I'm bugging you, so I'm going now."
Her sister and I were sitting with her today, and I asked her a couple of questions. She wrinkled her brow, and I asked, "Am I bugging you?" She nodded, "Yes."
"Do you want me to leave now?" She nodded "Yes." We both laughed so hard.
I was not laughing earlier today. As I watch her grow weaker, and quieter, it really hurts.
Most of the time, I just don't "go there" but when I do, I get that gripping my throat feeling, and the boot standing on my chest.
Many of you ask me how I'm doing, and I usually respond with, "not too bad." But that's a half-truth. I'm doing OK half the time, and not OK the other half.
Your words of encouragement and prayers keep me going. Thank you for that.
"OK, I know I'm bugging you, so I'm going now."
posted by Doug at May 29, 2008
2 Comments:
Thanks, Doug. Laughing so hard... how awesome! Love you. MA
Dear Doug:
It is very painful to watch a loved one "go away" bit by bit. It took out my guts, personally. You are a lot stronger than I am. At the bottom of everything that has and is happening, is the FAITH which is the foundation of your lives. I know that if I did not have my faith, I would not be here today typing away a message to you. To me, Faith and Love are everything. I empathize with you, and please, if you need me, or Hospice for anything, do not hesitate to ask. We are all here for you. Love and Prayers, Regina
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